Storm In My Heart

Death Inside Us

2009-05-30T11:27:00.000-07:00

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
"Norman Cousins"
This quote has triggered million disturbing thoughts within me....Isn't it true our wishes, our dreams, when it dies an untimely death,,there is a vaccum left inside us...ek khala jo rooh ko jhinjor deta hai...ek khalipan, ek soonapan chhor deta hai...Rooh par ek bojh reh jaata hai, na jeene deta hai na marne deta hai....Insaan jab mar jaata hai to hum halaat se samjhota kar lete hai..Khuda ka faisla barhaq hai, akhir mout to ek na ek din sab ko aani hai, lekin khwahishon ki mout bohot taqleef deti hai...kissi ki bewafaai jeene ki aarzoo maar deti hai...kuch andar mar jaata hai...zindagi bemaqsad ho jaati hai...Khuda kissi ko bhi ye aziyat ki zindagi na de..jahaan sirf tareeq raahein aur ashqon se bhari zindagi naseeb ho...Jahaan dosti ke naam par dagha milti ho...Khuda is khaalipan se sabko rihaai de..Jaanti hun ye rooh ki mout qabr tak bohot jald le jataa hai..kyonke pyaar marta nahi andar rehjaata hai nasoor bankar, dheere dheere humko khatm kar deta hai..

Lonely painful nights

Bringing fears n frights

Not finding u near me

Breaks me apart slowly

As tear roll down

My senses drown

Gloom descends on my heart

I cant ever see a fresh start

A fog of depression around

Pushing me lower to the ground

The fragrance that is specially you

Play games in my mind all anew,

Wrenching my heart

Is a aching need

To feel your body as i so often did

I reach out for you,

sorrowY

to touch but don’t find within reach

Realisation dawns & in its tow

My heart dips down in sorrow

You are just an illusion

my nerves are in confusion

My heart mourns & is silent

Soul grieving hear its lament

For In this slow death my love

nothing can & will affect me now

As my senses are Hurt & bruised

By you my love is crushed

my love lies in acute dearth..

And I die a slowww death

written by,

"aarzoo"

Painful Pain !!!

2009-05-27T03:47:00.000-07:00

Painful Pain...

Words are human, emotions divine!
So how do I express
My pain in just a line...
The strain, the trauma, the stress

Man-made words just cannot explain

The depth or intensity of my pain.

Does pain have any colour?
Yes, of course it does...

The blazing colour of fire

My head shoved into a furnace.

Does pain have any taste?
Yes, I've swallowed it...

The bitter acidic paste

Burning its way to my stomach pit.

Does pain have any flavour?
Yes, it sure does stink...

A sealed tomb - stale air,

Suffocating, choking life within.

Does pain make any sound?
Yes, I've heard the echoes...

Ear splitting cacophony,

my head resounds

With silent screams and anguished whispers.

Does pain have any weight?
Yes, I've been carrying it around...

Heavier than an elephant -

my freight Unbearable burden,

being crushed to the ground.

Does pain have a cost tag?
Yes, I've paid the price...

Worse than a washrag

My warped twisted life.

Through poetry I try to express
The pain that's ripping me apart
But mortal words are inadequate
To speak the language of the heart.
Feelings - sad and happy... God's creation
Divine aid needed to express these emotions.

[not mine]

ps : I just felt like sharing with you all as i know this would surely touch all of ur hearts cauze i felt these thoughts veryyy close to my life and heart.

Footprints in our heart !!!

2009-05-26T09:43:00.000-07:00

People come into our life make a mark and vanish in thin air leaving behind their footprints in our heart..It difficult to erase these footprints as they have walked with us miles and miles sharing good and bad times...being the pillar of strength in our tough times...bringing smiles on our face...We start relaying on them for every little thing..We try to return back their caring gesture tenfolds and try to be with them whenever they needed guidence...They make us feel so special, will be in touch 24x7...share every little anecdote of their life...It's as though they can't move a step without us..they become a integral part of our lives. our existence, our whole world revolves around them...Just can't describe the depth of emotions and the time and feelings invested in this relationship.

Then one day suddenly they just vanish from our lives making us feel sick and used...They just don't care, though they hog around us with new people and new friends and they suddenly don't have a single moment for us who used to be with us day in and day out...I just wonder why do they make friendship when they can't keep it...Why do they turn their backs as though we are parasites...Why do they act so stupidly and behave like strangers...I wonder what goes in their mind and heart...Why do they suddenly become immune towards our emotions and pain..the same person who couldn't see a single tear in our eyes suddely becomes the reason of pain and heartbreak and tears.

I know i'am not going to get the answers for all these questions churning inside my heart and mind making me sick, unhealthy and leaving me a emotional wreck. Relationships are for keeps and people who break the promises and turn their backs are not worth discussing at all..But our heart don't accept the bitter truth that they used us emotionally and left us all alone to nurse our bruised and shattered heart...The day we accept the reality will be the day we will be released from the turmoiled thoughts of betrayal.

You gave me so much of love

And filled my life with care

You gave me hope to live

And a new direction to life
It's difficult to hold on to

A slight wicker of hope

Come back before

I lose my faith in relationships

Come back before

Bitterness seeps into my being

Come back before

I lose the trust in whole mankind

Come back before i lose my sanity

Do come back my friend

Before i lose the zest to live.

"aarzoo"

Shattered Soul

2009-05-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

At one point of the time we all go through these emotions..inspite of being surrounded with loads of people our heart seeks that one persons attention, Why do we get attatched so much that it takes the toll on our senses and health...why can't we distract the focus of attention from them...
why are humans so emotional, why is there a vaccum in our lives, Inspite of trying hard and keeping ourselves busy at the end of the day we are gripped with the emptiness inside us...why is this feeling so strong to isolate ourselves from the rest of the world....what is it the heart seeks...our commitments and duties pushes us towards the world and we sincerly do make an attempt to fullfill everyone's needs wholeheartedly...taking care of the family, friends and everything...but ultimately we are left with that feeling of loneliness and incompletness at the end of the day...why has relationships become so shallow and practical.

Love,care, affection all these emotions should come from the bottom of your heart, These emotions cannot be forced, And love and affection never changes if you truely care, you'll never ever hurt nor try to bring tears in the person's eye...In life you are binded with many relations but balancing and giving the equal amount of care and attention makes the person perfect and flawless...If your feelings are true it will never ever change at any point of life...It becomes stronger n stronger with time...

But Alas!! few people know the true meaning of love and friendship for them it's just the passing phase, when they need emotional support they are 24x7 on your nerves and when they find new person they ditch you and move ahead giving hundred excuses...I wonder how do they breathe, how do they live, don't they have a conscious. You don't have to chuck your present relationship in order to move ahead in your new relationship. When it's decided this friendship is for keeps then it is for keeps. And it's the duty of the person to make this relationship work by making things at ease.

I pray when people commit to any relationship they very well give it's due credit otherwise they don't have the right to mess up with others lives and play with the innocent emotions..It's an inhuman act to play with feelings. May Allaah keep their heart alive with true emotions. And may not a soul on earth is left thirsty for love and friendship, and is left incomplete and lifeless. and may not a soul on earth is shattered by the inhuman act of the heartless persons.